My sister reports spending several days in bed with despair recently, so maybe it really is genetic. I can't see any hope of escaping my grim situation, and even if there were some financial/health miracle, I'm bloody old,a failure it's all over, etc. etc. ad nauseam. If I could just produce some passably decent work, it might help a little, but then I think 'what's the point?
Medication and talking therapy have never helped much, I wonder what ECT is like? Mind you, I don't suppose they do that much any more.