Crazycrone (crazycrone) wrote,
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Sickly And Sad...

Things seem extra-gloomy lately. In addition to my own constant depression, fatigue and multitude of ailments, very bad things have happened  to people I know, and I got another scary email from the sibling. Although 'only' 70, she's convinced that she and her husband are imminently going to pop their clogs. She's not really bothered about dying, if it's quick, and not too excruciating, but she's afraid hubby will go first, and with her poor vision and mobility problems, she's not fit to look after their rural house, with its fruit and vegetable plots, and like me, she's incapable of the simplest DIY. (The place is falling apart.) She reckons if C carks it, she'll have to sell, and where will she find a cheap , one room flat that will accept four cats?... I would have thought they'd 'set their affairs in order', by now, so that the survivor is looked after., but I can't criticise, as I'm finding it so very difficult to do such stuff. It's upsetting to read all this dismalness, as she was such a bright, ambitious kid, and her 'love story' with C seemed so romantic. Now, they just about tolerate each other, and she seems to brood on decay and death even more than I do. Fuckin' hell...
I was able to eat very little yesterday, and had a lot of nausea when I did. I needed to visit Sainsbury's (They have the best monkey nuts for the critters-), and the woman at the till was trying to be pleasant, but the second I'd paid, I had to dash to the bog, and barf up loads of bile, etc. It was even 'better' as there were skidmarks on the pan, but I didn't have time to switch stalls. Yetch.
I have a phone session with the GP tomorrow to find out about the X-rays of my knees. I'm on the waiting list to be seen about  thedigestive problem, etc, but will probably have to wait for ages more.
I'm feeling slightly better, today, so will try to work out a bit downstairs, just for 20 minutes or so. It still takes the edge off the despair for a short while, and the antics of the crows and squirrels never fail to raise a smile.
I see most of the press opinions on the new VALKYRIE were similar to mine; musically veh good, but lame on the production side... I'm still wondering about that pointy-hatted sprite capering on the battlefield...

I was dreaming about a 'Wakdanda'- like paradise place, so maybe it's time to re-run this doodle... (They'd never give me residence, of course, much less have me in the Imperial Guard...


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